So, I'm finding myself stuck...in time it feels like. Where is May going? I'm almost at the 2 month marker! Whoa.
The random, not totally baby related thing I'm contemplating lately is getting dreads (extension dreads that is) for the remainder of my pregnancy. It's something I've wanted to do for a long, long time and I think I'm going to do it. :) I'll be a big bellied woman with long boho dreads...I can get into that. :)
We shall see.
On another note, the baby's room is coming along I guess. If you call purging all the stuff that got stuffed into a room when we got married, "coming along." I had a break down at Babies R Us last night while there with Sam trying to pick out a crib. All of a sudden the joy and reality of the experience was turned upside down as everything avalanched down on me. I felt pressured by my own self to make a decision, pick something out, hurry, hurry, hurry.
Sam came to my rescue and told me he would save the day. We went home and he started the daunting task of getting all the bags and boxes out and going through them.
"Keep," "Throw away," "Give away," and "I have no idea" piles started to form and I started to feel loads of weight being lifted off me. I'm not alone, I'm not doing this alone.
The truth is, I'm going to be a kick butt amazing mom and Samuel is going to be crazy awesome dad. Sure, we may not know everything about having a new baby, but neither have thousands of other first time moms and pops. We'll figure it out. The main thing, I think for us is to chill, and enjoy this journey. What is life if you can't enjoy it through your own made up stresses?
Chill Jess, just chill.