There is so much I want to write down, and I will...but I've been adjusting to being a mom and love of two boys, well...3 actually. ;) Motherhood has taken on a whole new meaning to me this chapter. In the moments when I find myself wanting to cry because I just want an hour more of sleep or when I realize that it's 4pm and all I've worn all day is half of a nursing bra and stretched out underwear from my pregnancy, the times when I can count more dirty diapers in my living room than I can number of showers I've taken this week...I look at this tiny new face and instantly am flooded with a reality of love. A love that realizes that Cedar could have just been a lost dream and what would my heart give to have just one moment with him crying in my arms than to have no moments at all with him. I don't know if it's like a kiss on the lips or a smack in the face but, it hits me just the same. I'm clinging to every moment with a passion of being present with my sons. I want to soak up these new born days. I know how they zoom by, good lord they go so fast.
I've got to say, little new born, velvety heads are the best things on the planet. How did I forget how heavenly they are?! My gosh! And their little faces when they dream...sigh, I can't take it. In all this craziness there is so much to wonder at. Dang.
I'm going to sleep now. I'll have lots of stories to share soon. I just wanted to write down some random musings while I had a chance.
|My 2 week old wonder|